Sunday, August 23, 2009

Admiting Is The First Step

My name is Brooke and I have a problem. I am a terrible mother. Until last night, I have NEVER had my son lay down and go to sleep by himself. In fact, last night was the first night he has not slept with me!

Go ahead. Bring on the "shame on you's". I know I deserve them.

As a baby I found it so much easier to just slide him in bed with me than to worry about him in another room. As a toddler it was so sweet to snuggle and love on him all night long. As a preschooler I had him in bed for my comfort because Jeremy was working nights and he would play with my hair all night and it was so soothing.

Now that baby number two is forthcoming and he and I are both bigger and much wilder sleepers, the time has come to put him in his bed. It absolutely breaks my heart. I lay in bed last night and worried that he felt rejected because Mommy didn't want him in there or that he would be lonely and scared. The hormones took over and I nearly cried. If I could have picked him up I would have went and gotten him and brought him to bed!

Someone tell me I am not alone in this one please! Any other constant bed bugs out there? Any tips on making the transition easier for me and little man?


LoserGirl said...

Samuel sleeps with me and I wouldn't have it any other way. One day he'll sleep in his own bed, but right now we have a family bed. I <3 it!

Brooke said...

Thanks for making me feel better! I love the snuggle time!!

Jeremy, Shauna, & Kennedy said...

Kennedy has always slept with us and we LOVE it! We've tried putting her in her own bed, but we miss her just as bad as she misses us!!!